I’m a 53 year old hormonal woman. I wish I could say that this is a recent development, but due to a surgery in my early 30’s, it’s been an event years in the making. The past year, feeling somewhat less than fun, I decided to get my hormones checked. I wanted to know if I was a bad person or if I could blame it on something beyond my control. All of you ladies who have experienced hot flashes, mood swings, or that awful feeling of “what just came out of my mouth?” know exactly what I’m talking about. Menopause is the most helpless feeling in the world. So in hopes that I could blame my personality disorder on nature, I submitted to a hormone test. When I got the results back, I text my daughter “Good news, I’m not mean, my hormones are unbalanced.” Only in my world is unbalanced a good thing. A few corrections in my hormone meds, and I’m good to go.
How wonderful would it be that the rest of my life was so easily fixed? Life bogs you down and just like the betrayal that I receive from my body at times, my mind betrays me. I get fixated on things that ruin my attitude. My mind is consumed with situations that frankly, just don’t matter. It’s when I let Satan grab my heart and attitude that I have to take a step back and read the following verse.
“Take a fresh breath and let God renew your attitude and spirit.” Ephesians 4:23
Satan may drag me down but God can renew. Just like I let my unbalanced hormonal body get in the way of pure joy, I let Satan do the same thing. There’s a reason we call a deep breath a cleansing breath. If you’ve ever been in a smoke laden room and walked out into the fresh air, you get it. There’s no better feeling than filling your lungs full of fresh air. Now imagine being in ensnared in Satan’s smokey grasp and then inhaling the fresh breath of God. It fills every pore of your being and envelopes your soul. When all is at peace in your soul, your attitude will follow. How can we not want anything less?
Oh Lord thank you for those fresh breaths of You that renew us and give us hope for tomorrow.
(hormonal) Carol